Slow ride forever

I bought my Geo Metro less than a month after moving to California. That was eight years ago. Another time. Another me. Over those next twenty-two months, I went through such profound changes in my life and personality that I actually have a hard time remembering a “me” before that time. As a result, that means I also have a hard time remembering a “me” who drove anything except that little black car. Of course “little” is a misleading word. I took that car over mountains. I took it into the desert. I drove it across the country three times – once with every earthly possession I owned in the trunk and back seat (which I still haven’t been able to identify as “lame” or “something Jack Kerouac would do”). It’s been pelted by everything from snow to falling rock to hailstones slung by a tornado. The Geo may have been “little”, but it was little in the way that, say, Joe Pesci is little.

Almost every major epiphany I had during that time occurred behind the wheel of my Geo: deciding to pull back from friends in order to figure out who I was as “just me”… fully realizing the extent of the love I had for a certain girl… understanding that I could move out of L.A. even though I felt like my whole life had been leading me there… ultimately realizing that no matter how much I thought I’d learned about myself, the world, and my place in it, I was still, and would forever be “full of s***.”

They weren’t all earth-shattering, paradigm-shifting revelations. There were also all the little things I learned behind the wheel of the Geo:

- My love for country music
- The proper method for controlling a skid around another car while you simultaneously curse them out and flip the bird.
- You can park anywhere in L.A. for free if you’re a good enough parallel parker who doesn’t mind walking a bit.
- The top number on your speedometer is not necessarily the top speed your car can handle.
- Cops will not pull you over no matter how fast you’re driving if there is a tornado in the vicinity.
- Windows-down is always preferable to air-conditioning on all but the most unbearably hot days.
- It doesn’t matter how badly you sing if you crank the radio loud enough.
- Even though we know we shouldn’t drive home drunk, we still sometimes do.
- A fresh coat of wax can make even a piece of junk look sporty and stylish.
- Even so, chicks will never gravitate toward a guy in an economy car.
- Sometimes it isn’t necessary to have a destination. Driving to drive is just as fun.

The Geo has been a central part of my life for over eight years now. But when the first words out of my mechanic’s mouth last week were, “How attached are you to this car?” it wasn’t hard to see the writing on the wall. He rattled off a list of problems that, without doing any calculations, added up to more than the car’s monetary worth. I’m not sure how surprised I was to discover tears welling up in my eyes, knowing that one way or another the Geo would have to be put down.

Today, as I signed the dotted line to purchase a new mini-van for my growing family, it all hit home. I will never drive the Geo again. It’s already off our insurance, making way for something newer, roomier, more reliable. Part of me regretted that I hadn’t taken the Geo for one last joyride. But really, what would that have gained? I know I have to move on. Even though the Geo played such a central role in the transition from “old me” to “new me”, I know it could not have continued functioning in this new and ever-changing life that I lead. In that respect, I’m actually almost glad the decision was taken out of my hands. The Geo’s usefulness, from a completely legal standpoint, is now worn out. Its destiny is fulfilled. Soon a tow truck will come take it away, leaving nothing in its wake but vivid memories and a generous tax write off. After that, the “me” transition, I suppose, will finally be complete.

So, slow ride, old friend. Take it easy.