The Blog of Brian Hodges

(from 2002)

When the pastor asked if I promised to love, honor and support Lauren, I said, “Sure I do.” How hard is that really? Say, “I love you,” treat her well and lend a hand around the house wherever I can. I apparently forgot to consider the fact that my bride-to-be was entering grad school to become a midwife.

I suppose I should have seen the red flags. After undergrad, Lauren took a year off to work as a nurse. Boy did that put things in perspective. I’d be complaining after a bad day, “Geez, my boss was yelling at me, the printer kept jamming and my computer crashed.” She’d come back with, “Oh yeah, well somebody died.” And that would pretty much be the end of that.

I’ve heard that nurses are the worst hypochondriacs because of what they see on a daily basis. Yeah, I get that. Through Lauren, I’ve learned about pretty much every horrible thing that can happen to a person. I was surprised at just how many orifices one can bleed from. And I knew I was gushing from every single one of them. Acute pain was the worst. I felt every poke, prod and incision that Lauren described – usually in my back or stomach. In marriage counseling, they told us listening was important. They didn’t clarify the importance of doubling over in agony.

But I made it through. We made it through. We made it through her night shifts and her sleep deprivation. We made an agreement that for every gruesome story she told me and for every surgical show on the Learning Channel she made me watch, she in turn would have to watch a scary movie. She hates action and suspense as much as I hate sharp stabbing pain, so it was a nice trade off.

Now’s she’s in grad school for midwifery. At first I was jazzed up about the idea. I mean, she’s studying all the precepts of gynecology after all. And so is everybody else in her class! All girls! Sooner or later, I knew they were going to have to practice breast exams! And maybe they’d need extra practice after class! And they’d all come over to our place, and they’d all be naked, and they’d start to tickle each other, and then the pizza girl would show up with her twin sister, and then… and then… And then Lauren told me all about the fine art of performing speculum exams.

Yep. All the women know exactly what I’m talking about. And all the men are better off in the ignorant bliss I was in less than a week ago.

During her year as a nurse, Lauren only had stories. Now she has books. With pictures. Of very not nice things. As I sit writing this, she’s at her desk writing a paper about Gonorrhea. She keeps asking me to touch… places on her body. You know, just to show me how they feel during a clinical exam. Places that should never ever EVER be clinical between a husband and a wife. She recently brought home a video of not one, not two, but six births. And she made me watch every single one of them. Sure sure, I know it’s supposed to be a beautiful, miraculous event. Blah blah blah. It was like a tragic car accident. I was horrified, yet I couldn’t look away. I just lay on my side, curled into as tight a ball as I’ve ever been since… well since I was the potential subject of one of these videos.

But through it all, Lauren was right next to me. Hugging me, cradling me, kissing my temple. She kept telling me how much this meant to her and how much she loved me. She even promised to watch Lord of the Rings as a thank you. How could I not love, honor and support someone like that? It’s a no-brainer.

Lauren’s Masters program lasts eighteen months. She’s two weeks in. Every day I come home and ask her how her day was, even though I probably don’t want to know. But as she starts telling me all about babies and the birthing process and the miracle of life, I can’t help but feel the excitement in her eyes and the passion in her voice. Passion about something that is more than just a career. It’s a calling. So I just smile, remembering why I fell in love with her, and why I said, “I do.”

Then she asks me to come feel her cervix – and the scalpels pierce my stomach yet again.

The Girl and I were just chilling out tonight, listening to the Happy Feet soundtrack while we cleaned up her room, when she suddenly says: “This is the one where they don’t beat baby girls.”

That made me stop for a second. I was trying to remember a place in the movie where the penguins beat up the baby penguins. I know there was a part where the dad was worried that he’d drop an egg. But I don’t remember him actually beating one of them.

“When do they beat the babies?” I ask.

“No they don’t beat the baby girls, I said.”

I crinkled up my forehead trying to think what the heck movie she could possibly be talking about when I realized which song was playing. It was Nicole Kidman singing the Prince song, “Kiss.” And that’s when I realized what the first line of the song might sound like to the unfamiliar brain of a three-year-old: “You don’t have to be rich to be my pearl,” becomes:

“You don’t have to beat the baby girls.”

Now my question is this: Is it weird that The Girl understood that as a completely innocuous line?

I saw a Humvee in the parking lot of Whole Foods today. Weird.

I realized today that I don’t really like most Christmas music and haven’t since I was a kid. Actually I realized that a few years ago, but I figured out WHY today. As a kid, Christmas music is fun mostly because you’re always the one singing it. But as you get older, you’re forced to listen to Bing Crosby sing it. And if you don’t particularly like Bing Crosby, well… it doesn’t do much for your like of the music in general.

My daughter came out with a very profound statement the other day: “I was two on the day I turned three.”

I used to buy milk two or more gallons at a time. Then I read some stuff that said milk wasn’t as good for you as everyone thought. These days I buy vinegar two or more gallons at a time. I’m not saying the one is a natural byproduct of the other, but there you are.

I never realized just how insanely fun it can be to throw one tiny cat onto the back of another.

I don’t think I will ever reach a point in my life where I am too mature to laugh at a really fat kid falling down.

For years I’ve told people the story of a childhood friend who peed on an electric fence as if it were something that happened to me personally. Somehow a story like that is just funnier in the first person.

I don’t care if she’s only fifteen; hot is hot and show me the law that says it’s illegal to leer.

I like to think I’m fairly open-minded when it comes to strange foods, but I still cannot wrap my mind around tofu.

Little kids’ bodies are so ridiculously disproportionate it’s almost a marvel they aren’t defective. Look at one of them when they raise their arms up high.  The fingers barely clear their scalp for crying out loud!

The thing I really miss about my Geo is playing “Merge Chicken” against people in Mercedes SUV’s.

I have no idea how I used to eat Ramen noodles in such large quantities.

I somehow can’t bring myself to feel sympathy for anyone who loses an hour and a half’s worth of work because they forgot to save.

I never realized that I hadn’t seen a single red hot dog since leaving Maine until about a year ago when I read on Wikipedia that red hot dogs are actually a Maine “thing.”

I likewise never realized that I hadn’t seen a single whoopie pie since leaving Maine until somebody told me that Maine is apparently the whoopie pie capital of the world.

Britney Spears is hot. Her music is catchy. And everyone just needs to lay off.

At any given hour on any given day I would bet a minor sum of money that I could find at least one Law & Order or CSI incarnation on TV.

I still don’t know, nor care, what the top news story of the day is.

I saw a Humvee in the parking lot of Whole Foods today. Still weird.

I received this email forward from an older relative. Even though I can appreciate where the writer is coming from, and even tend to agree with a lot of its sentiment, for some reason it just hacked me off. It’s a typical “Our generation is better than the new generation” tirade, which acknowledges all the things that made the previous generation great, but fails to recognize all the things they did to screw it up for those of us who followed. So just to set the record straight, here is the original email in its entirety with my comments in bold italics.

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Those Born 1930-1979!

TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930′s 40′s, 50′s, 60′s and 70′s !!

First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant.

Yes and I’m sure many of you are still dealing with health problems and your own addictions to the same substances to this day as a result.

They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn’t get tested for diabetes.

Of course, the oceans weren’t nearly as polluted back then as they were now thanks to you, so mercury contamination in tuna wasn’t as much of a concern back then.

Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints.

Look around at the gluttony of TV ads for designer pills intended to take care of everything from chronic asthma to irritable bowl syndrome to erectile dysfunction. Look at all the fun new forms of cancer you’re getting that your parents never had to deal with. Looks like all that lead-based paint and other chemicals you’ve been introducing into every product on the market had some unexpected long-term effects.

As infants & children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat.

Mind you, this was during a time when all your parents had to navigate were 45m.p.h. rural two lane roads where you encountered maybe ten other cars on your way to work. There were two intersections and one blinking light in town. Unless your parents were particularly idiotic drivers, the only chance they had of getting into an accident was if a deer jumped in front of them.

Today we’re driving on multi-laned highways with heavy merges, multiple exits to left and right, hundreds of signs pointing this way and that so that you’re never quite sure if you’re heading in the right direction or not. Not to mention the fact that we’re trying to run this gauntlet with about a thousand other cars, all going the same 65m.p.h. So forgive us if we’re a little more worried about what might happen to our children if we ended up in the middle of a ten-car pileup.

We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking.

Again, back then you actually had roads that weren’t jammed with other cars, and nice soft grass to ride on. But you’ve paved over everything since then, meaning we’re riding our bikes on asphalt. So yeah, we want a little more protection for our head in case we wipe out on yet another of your oil stained parking lots.

We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle.

Great, and maybe if you hadn’t gone and polluted the water supply we’d be drinking from the hose too.

We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this.

This seems a bit disingenuous. Somehow I doubt that the “cootie” argument began with our generation.

We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter and drank koolade made with sugar, but we weren’t overweight because :

WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING !

We’d be outside playing too, except for the fact that you bulldozed the baseball diamond to put up luxury condominiums, you tore down the YMCA to build a WalMart and you drained the swimming hole to put in yet another massive parking lot for yet another massive strip mall (which you won’t allow us to skateboard on). You’ve kind of taken away all our outdoor places to go. We’d ride our bikes there, but again, refer to the previous bit about those roads that you made entirely unsafe for us to be riding on.

We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on. No one was able to reach us all day. And we were O.K.

Chances are you were playing at or near one of your friend’s houses with at least one parent or trusted neighbor keeping a loose watch on everything. Today, our neighbors are strangers and both parents need to work just to keep up in this two-income trap that you managed to set for us.

We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem.

Do you really expect us to believe that you’re going to allow us to race a handmade go-kart down your hill? You won’t even let us SKATEBOARD on all those nice big parking lots you built.

We did not have Playstations, Nintendo’s, X-boxes, no video games at all, no 150 channels on cable, no video movies or DVD’s, no surround-sound or CD’s, no cell phones, no personal computer’s, no Internet or chat rooms…….

WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!

Your friends lived across the street. Our friends live ten miles across town via one of those multi-laned highways we mentioned earlier. You know what we find when we go outside? Traffic.

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents.

Those trees were in the backyards of your own houses. But since you’ve created a housing race encouraged by zero-interest loans you’ve priced us out of our own neighborhoods. We live in crammed-together suburbs and apartment complexes where the only trees are owned by somebody else who puts a fence around the thing so that we risk impaling our testicles more than breaking our teeth should we fall out.

We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live in us forever.

Okay, but then YOU yelled at US for swallowing gum. Which way do you want it?

We were given BB guns for our 10th birthdays, made up games with sticks and tennis balls and, although we were told it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes.

AGAIN, you had your own backyards to do that stuff in. Our downstairs neighbors tend to call the police when they see us holding a gun in our common back yard.

We rode bikes or walked to a friend’s house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just walked in and talked to them!

Yet again, your friends were a two-minute walk across the street. You’ve destroyed the idea of a town center so all our friends are scattered across a thirty-mile radius. We need phones and email if we’re ever going to talk to them outside of school.

Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn’t had to learn to deal with disappointment. Imagine that!!

Because you still had parks and public pools and something called “recess”, it probably wasn’t such a big deal if you didn’t make the team. You had other things to keep you active. But since you’ve graciously ELIMINATED all these things for us, maybe we don’t mind creating a few extra Little League teams so that more of our kids have the opportunity to do something other than play those X-Boxes and Playstations you mocked just a couple paragraphs ago.

The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. They actually sided with the law!

Okay fine, I’m with you on this one.

These generations have produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever!

It has also produced some of the most soulless, narcissistic, toy-hoarding, money grubbing greedy generations ever to grace this earth. People who gave up on the idea of making the world a better place once they realized that they could drive a BMW , own a condo and go on a cruise every year… Just sayin’.

The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.

It’s also been an explosion of land, water and air pollution as you search for easier and cheaper ways to mass-produce all those innovations of yours.

We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL!

And you dealt with it by selling out the idealism of your youth in favor of stock options, middle-management positions and items that sell for thirty-nine cents less at WalMart even though it put some of your friends out of business. Quite frankly, I’m not impressed with what you did with all that freedom, success and responsibility.

If YOU are one of them . . CONGRATULATIONS!

You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated so much of our lives for our own good

Okay, excuse me but YOU PEOPLE are the ones IN CHARGE of the government right now!!! YOU are the ones who made these rules and regulations. If you don’t like the way the world has gone, you have nobody to blame but your own self-righteous SELF.

And while you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how brave (and lucky) their parents were.

Brave? BRAVE??? Are these the same “brave” people who spit, cursed and threw blood at the soldiers who returned from Vietnam in the late 60’s? Yes, your generation turned out a few gems, but so does every generation… ours included.

Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn’t it?

No, it makes me want to strangle all you sell outs from the older generation for ruining it for us. God willing we’ll do a better job with it for OUR children.

I am whooped. The fam and I just got back from a place in Pennsylvania called Peddler’s Village. It’s a very toursity place where people go to buy lots of crap that they don’t really need. Fortunately we didn’t go for that reason. You see they also have a mini-amusement park for kids called Giggleberry Fair which consists of a merry-go-round, a playroom full of dress up clothes, musical instruments, puppets, etc… But the coup de gras at this place is “Giggleberry Mountain” which is a gigantic contraption made of nets, ropes, tubes, slides, and anything else a kid might want to climb. It goes up six stories!

BUT, the best thing about this whole place, the thing that makes me want to go back again and again: on the bottom two levels of Giggleberry Mountain are a series of air canons for firing little NERF-like balls, of which there are literally thousands scattered here, there and everywhere. On the lower level there are canons that fire large volumes of balls up into the air, and on the second level there are swivel cannons that you use to fire at opponents on the other side of the well. Or you can do what I did and fire down into the well… into the crowd.

The best part is shooting at those kids who have just walked in and don’t quite realize what the room is all about just yet. Then out of nowhere a little ball suddenly plunks them in the head. They look up like, “What the heck was that?” When they shrug their shoulders and look away, you blast them again. Seriously, how awesome is that? Where else in America can you go where it’s actually okay, and even encouraged, for you to shoot little kids in the head? Nowhere, that’s where!

And I just want to say that I think I earned the title of “Funnest Grownup on the Freakin’ Planet” tonight. Most parents were only shooting at their own kids. Well, my kid was off with her mother climbing nets. So I just started unloading on anyone who was at least six-years-old and within range. At first they’d be like, “Holy crap, was that an adult who just shot me?” But after the second or third direct hit, they smartened up and started returning fire. By the time we finally moseyed on out of this place, I had a good twenty kids all ganging up to blast me with cannons or, when that failed, flinging them like baseballs and cheering like Mardi Gras whenever they pegged me in the face. No kidding, almost every single kid in that well was ignoring every other person at every other cannon and focusing every bit of firepower on me. It was like being on American Gladiators except I was the Gladiator.

It… was… AWESOME!

I bought my Geo Metro less than a month after moving to California. That was eight years ago. Another time. Another me. Over those next twenty-two months, I went through such profound changes in my life and personality that I actually have a hard time remembering a “me” before that time. As a result, that means I also have a hard time remembering a “me” who drove anything except that little black car. Of course “little” is a misleading word. I took that car over mountains. I took it into the desert. I drove it across the country three times – once with every earthly possession I owned in the trunk and back seat (which I still haven’t been able to identify as “lame” or “something Jack Kerouac would do”). It’s been pelted by everything from snow to falling rock to hailstones slung by a tornado. The Geo may have been “little”, but it was little in the way that, say, Joe Pesci is little.

Almost every major epiphany I had during that time occurred behind the wheel of my Geo: deciding to pull back from friends in order to figure out who I was as “just me”… fully realizing the extent of the love I had for a certain girl… understanding that I could move out of L.A. even though I felt like my whole life had been leading me there… ultimately realizing that no matter how much I thought I’d learned about myself, the world, and my place in it, I was still, and would forever be “full of s***.”

They weren’t all earth-shattering, paradigm-shifting revelations. There were also all the little things I learned behind the wheel of the Geo:

- My love for country music
- The proper method for controlling a skid around another car while you simultaneously curse them out and flip the bird.
- You can park anywhere in L.A. for free if you’re a good enough parallel parker who doesn’t mind walking a bit.
- The top number on your speedometer is not necessarily the top speed your car can handle.
- Cops will not pull you over no matter how fast you’re driving if there is a tornado in the vicinity.
- Windows-down is always preferable to air-conditioning on all but the most unbearably hot days.
- It doesn’t matter how badly you sing if you crank the radio loud enough.
- Even though we know we shouldn’t drive home drunk, we still sometimes do.
- A fresh coat of wax can make even a piece of junk look sporty and stylish.
- Even so, chicks will never gravitate toward a guy in an economy car.
- Sometimes it isn’t necessary to have a destination. Driving to drive is just as fun.

The Geo has been a central part of my life for over eight years now. But when the first words out of my mechanic’s mouth last week were, “How attached are you to this car?” it wasn’t hard to see the writing on the wall. He rattled off a list of problems that, without doing any calculations, added up to more than the car’s monetary worth. I’m not sure how surprised I was to discover tears welling up in my eyes, knowing that one way or another the Geo would have to be put down.

Today, as I signed the dotted line to purchase a new mini-van for my growing family, it all hit home. I will never drive the Geo again. It’s already off our insurance, making way for something newer, roomier, more reliable. Part of me regretted that I hadn’t taken the Geo for one last joyride. But really, what would that have gained? I know I have to move on. Even though the Geo played such a central role in the transition from “old me” to “new me”, I know it could not have continued functioning in this new and ever-changing life that I lead. In that respect, I’m actually almost glad the decision was taken out of my hands. The Geo’s usefulness, from a completely legal standpoint, is now worn out. Its destiny is fulfilled. Soon a tow truck will come take it away, leaving nothing in its wake but vivid memories and a generous tax write off. After that, the “me” transition, I suppose, will finally be complete.

So, slow ride, old friend. Take it easy.

Was there ever a point in time when the chicken joke was funny? The original one I mean. The one that has come to represent the quintessential definition of a joke in general, and a bad joke in particular.

Q: Why did the chicken cross the road?
A: To get to the other side.

It’s a reversal technique that gives this joke its intended humor. The setup indicates the chicken had some higher purpose for crossing the road. But the punchline indicates he was crossing the road simply for the purpose OF crossing the road. A modern equivalent of this joke (at least the only one I can think of at 4:00 in the morning as I sit in a production trailer babysitting editors) comes from an episode of Friends.

FRANK: We were down at the courthouse, we were having lunch and we just decided to get married.
PHOEBE: Oh my god, what were you doing at the courthouse?
FRANK: We were having lunch.

The funny reversal idea behind the chicken joke is the same, but once we’re actually old enough and intellectually mature enough to get the punchline, we’ve heard it like a zillion times in some other patently not funny context, making it just “that stupid chicken joke.” Really, the only time anyone ever laughs at the chicken joke is when somebody (not unlike the original joke teller) throws some kind of reversal on the expected punchline.

It can be done via a pun like:

Q: Why did the chicken cross the playground?
A: To get to the other slide.

It can be done with absurdity:

Q: Why did the frog cross the road?
A: Because he was stapled to the chicken.

Or it can be done by applying a third party personality to the punchline:

Q: Why did the chicken cross the road?
A (by Einstein): Whether the chicken crossed the road or the road moved beneath it depends on your point of reference.
A (by Martin Luther King): I envision a world where chickens are free to cross roads without having their motives called into question.
A (by Buddha): To ask this question is to deny your own chicken nature.
A (by Colonel Sanders): Wait, you mean I missed one?

But just where the heck did the original joke come from? And moreover, was there ever a point in time when people found it funny? Like did the first adult to ever hear this joke laugh when he heard it? As I said, the joke has become kind of a stock character of sorts representing all jokes everywhere and all bad jokes specifically. But that iconic status couldn’t have materialized out of thin air. Was it a really popular joke that just got told too much, making people sick of it to the point where they finally started mocking the thing? It must have been based in something somewhere in the past. Catch phrases are like that too. We say them and we know what they mean, but they don’t actually make sense in our modern context.

Example: “Close but no cigar.”

Heh? What the heck does a cigar have to do with guessing the wrong answer? Well, fairground games used to give away cigars as prizes. So when a patron missed the ring toss by an inch, the guy running the game would let loose with a phrase that actually meant something in contemporary context. Even though that context has disappeared over the years, the phrase still holds meaning.

Likewise, even though the chicken joke is no longer funny, we still recognize it, not only as a joke, but as THE joke. But where? When? Why? How did this particular joke earn such dubious longevity?

And moreover… why a chicken?

In just over half a year I will be entering my thirties. But I’m not one to freak out about the fact that my youth is almost officially over. In a way, the last five years have been a gradual slope into adulthood anyway. Marriage, a kid, a job I held down for four straight years (a personal record), a beard, working in a field where people several years older view me as some kind of expert, starting a writing career in drips and drabs, another kid… In spite of it all, I still feel quite youthful and not at all like I need to worry about another decade coming to a close.

But two days ago I called the police on a neighbor who was playing his radio too loud.

And yesterday… I bought an area rug.

It’s amazing how ten minutes in kid world can become a microcosm for life in general and, if you look hard enough, a fast forward glimpse into what these little rugrats have in store for you. Lauren and I recently took the kids down to the pool for an afternoon and The Girl made fast friends with a little boy who was there with his mom. At three years old, The Girl has pretty much grown used to always being the youngest kid in a group, but this boy was only two and it was obvious from the first moment that he was in love and would follow her anywhere. She must have sensed this too, because within minutes she began testing his loyalties.

Standing on the side, the two of them would talk for a second, then The Girl would spontaneously announce, “I’m going over there,” and run to the other side of the pool. The little boy would have a moment’s hesitation where he looked at his mom in the water, then at my daughter beckoning him from twenty feet away. Then, making the hard decision, he would run, with many looks back, to The Girl. His mom and I would swim our way over to the two chatting kids just in time to hear The Girl announce that she was going back over there now, and run in the direction from whence we had all just arrived, forcing the little boy into another hard decision.

Personally, I didn’t mind shadowing my daughter all over the pool—that’s why we had come down here after all—but it was apparent that this boy’s mom was tired and really didn’t feel like swimming back and forth just to follow her son while he followed a girl. We learned earlier that she’d just had another baby six weeks earlier and this was one of the first times she’d been out of the house. But it was apparent her little boy was indeed prepared to follow our little girl no matter how many times she ran away from him. And the more The Girl scurried away, the less he looked to his mom for approval before pursuing. Sensing the mom’s lack of energy, I suggested to my daughter that we stay in one spot. Not to be deterred, she immediately changed tactics and began subtly taunting her newfound friend.

“How old are you?” she asked, knowing full well what the answer would be since she’d asked the same question a half dozen times already. It took the younger boy a few seconds to formulate his words and position his fingers into the correct number of digits. “I…two!” She immediately shot back, “Oh well I’m three!” After about the tenth round of this exchange with The Girl asserting her numeric superiority, the boy actually started lying to sound better. “I…tree!” he said. The Girl, knowing better (and knowing full well what she was doing I might add) mocked, “You’re not three! You’re two! I’m three!”

The mom, trying to keep her part in this whole thing as jovial and non-confrontational as possible, stuck up for her son with a lame, “Oh he’ll be three in a few months, won’t you buddy.” The Girl considered this for a moment, then looked at the boy and decided to taunt him another way. “That’s my daddy,” she said, pointing to me. “Your daddy’s not here.”

My stomach dropped. In five minutes time, she’d progressed from a coy little game of cat and mouse, to throwing veiled insults at the boy, to throwing veiled insults at his family. I was honestly rendered speechless. I couldn’t see scolding her over this. It was a perfectly normal three-year-old conversation topic after all, and she wasn’t blatantly mocking this kid by any stretch. But I knew better. We all did by this point. This wasn’t a casual observation on The Girl’s part. It was a well-calculated dig, hidden behind the mask of innocence. The boy’s mom once again spoke up in defense, “His daddy is at home watching his baby sister so mommy could go to the pool.” I jumped on this and rallied to the mom’s side, “Oh see, they have a baby just like us. His daddy is home with the baby.”

The Girl, already bored with this new line of dialogue, changed tactics again. “I wanna jump, Daddy!” She shooed the little boy away with a flip of her hand then leapt three feet off the edge of the pool into my waiting arms. She looked back at her newfound puppy dog with a look that said, “See what I just did.” Earlier, before she and this boy became fast friends, he too had been attempting this stunt… only he didn’t so much jump into his mom’s arms as lean out until he was in contact with her hands before falling the rest of the way. I’m fairly certain The Girl saw this and remembered it. Now, off the boy’s look of hesitation, she threw her arms around my neck, laid her head on my chest and said in a loud clear voice, “I love you, Daddy.”

That settled it. Even at two years old this kid knew that to impress a girl and steal her away from the man in her life, he couldn’t just match what she had done. He had to do it three times bigger and five times more dangerous. Just behind the ledge where The Girl had jumped was a slightly higher ledge. Just behind that was a brick wall about two feet high. The little boy, who not ten minutes earlier had been afraid to jump from the ledge two inches above the water, was gearing up for a stunt that was certain to impress the little redhead he was quickly falling in love with… if he didn’t split his head open in the process. Fortunately I, Lauren and the boy’s mom all had the good sense to stop him before he took a flying leap off Blind Man’s Bluff. One of us made up some lame but plausible excuse that would allow us to separate the kids before The Girl could convince him to elope with her.

Boy oh boy. She looks so harmless, but apparently my daughter has the potential to be that girl the other moms view as a “bad influence.” She speaks well. She’s sweet and courteous. She has a soft porcelain face that absolutely cries, “Innocence!” But let us not forget that fiery red hair and the temper that comes along with it. This kid is smart, shrewd, calculating. She’ll learn how to wrap people around her finger and use them to her liking. I only pray she uses them for good and not for evil. I don’t want to field phone calls from angry parents over why their son missed curfew and ended up in jail over a dare. I really don’t ever want to think of my daughter as being that proverbial “Madonna/Whore” package.

It does give me hope that when the boy and his mom finally left the pool, The Girl watched him go, forlornly waving goodbye, and spent the next two hours sadly asking, “Where the boy go? Where the boy go?” She really did love him. She just didn’t know how to express it. Maybe we’ll just keep her away from the pool for awhile.

I don’t generally find myself having the same hang-ups with my daughter’s playtime that a lot of parents tend to have. I don’t freak out when she crawls in dirt, runs through puddles or climbs on things she’ll most likely fall off of. I have been the recipient of multiple double takes at the park where other parents stop dead in their tracks, wondering if I really just said, “Sweetie why don’t you roll in this mud instead,” or “Honey if you’re going to throw rocks, throw them that way.” I’m equally lax when it comes to language. I don’t use the word “silly” to when I really mean “stupid” or “dumb.” I don’t shush The Girl when she starts talking about “poopie” or “pee-pee.” I don’t give her timeouts for saying, “butt” or “crap.” Off those same double takes, I usually respond, “Hey that’s why those words are there… so she doesn’t say ‘a**’ or ‘s***.’” But a few weeks ago, even I found myself putting the kibosh on what is normally a fun and innocent game we play—all because I was afraid of what other parents might think. Justifiably so I might add.

A little backstory on this game. The Girl is at that age where she’s really learning how to manipulate words and language. Rather than simply parroting stock phrases that she hears from us, she’s realizing she has the ability to rework sentence structure in order to elicit certain responses. It’s simple stuff really, mostly substituting one word for another for comedic effect: “Twinkle twinkle little TIGGER. How I wonder what you PIGLET!” A turn of phrase like that will generally set off a good five to ten minutes of she and I trying to top each other with zany substitutions. One popular version of this game is to alternate the names of various body parts into our base phrase of choice: “Oh no, I stepped on your… [foot, eye, elbow, chin].” Of course, because The Girl is at potty training age, and because she has a baby brother who gets his diaper changed about a thousand times a day, words describing the various male and female genitalia will inevitably come into play: “Oh no, I stepped on your… [butt, tushie, nipple, penis, balls].”

Like I said, I consider this to be a pretty innocent game, but a few weeks ago we were hanging out with my sister and her future in-laws when The Girl suddenly decided to play. Unfortunately, the base phrase that she decided to start with was, “I want to kiss your…” Now she started off by saying “hair,” but I knew where this path would eventually lead. All I could think was that these people had met me once. They didn’t know what kind of person I was. Where was their mind going to go when Allison inevitably said, “I want to kiss your… [well, ya know].” Because I know where my mind would go: “Holy f*** (because ‘poop’ would not be an adequate expletive in this situation), this guy is totally pedophiling his daughter.”

Now I didn’t want to create undue attention or perceived guilt by outright ordering my daughter to stop that now. So I tried laughing it off and saying, “No, you don’t want to do that.” But she persisted, thinking this was some new part of the game I’d just made up. “Daddy, I want to kiss your… beard!” Paralyzed and unable to think of any better diversion, I just laughed and said, “Naw!” hoping she would end it on her own. But no. “Daddy, I want to kiss your… neck!” At this point I asked her to come show me how she jumps off the kitchen table and we vacated the living room before the irreversible phrase could be uttered.